Notations.

and before leaving, I take a tour of the apartment.

if I have left anything on the gas

or the window open

or the geyser on

or the switches

and after half locking the door,

I take 2nd tour of the apartment 

again,

just in case... 

the window

or the geyser

or switches

and every time while locking the door,

I turn the keys in the wrong direction.

and every time I wonder

how can I be so thoughtless

the keys have to be turned towards left side...

or is it on the right side?

and every single day, I stand in front of the door

struggling to lock it 

turning the keys left and right

wondering, how can I be so heedless

wasn't it easier yesterday?

and cursing myself, for not being attentive

for forgetting keys on the way home 

the other day,

for getting easily annoyed 

by little inconvenience, 

for giving up every time 

on the things I love,

for not being able to do

what I wanted to do,

for procrastinating the

most important things,

for not caring about anything

at all.

suddenly the door gets locked.

and I wonder was it left or right

while walking down the stairs.

suddenly I rush back to the door 

for I have left the geyser on 

I think... 

the light was red 

or was it green?

and I end up 

taking the 3rd tour of the apartment.